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We Are Seeing More Energy

We Are Seeing More Energy.

 

Well as we slowly get to springier type weather I am getting more and more energy to get things done and improve our reach everywhere including onto Instagram as momentum builds and u get more energetic, this is the hope anyway. Last year I wasn’t this way as we look back on last year in some ways being better then the year before, this is encouraging in some ways since w knowing the hole I came out of with the amount of work put in.
This isn’t to say I won’t have slower days ahead as we know i am on borrowed time and can truly only do this so long and in the last while we seen my interest fall off as I truly would rather be doing anything else other then this even current moment, I truly find myself wanting to close in and exit the world all together a spot I have been in the last 2 years. The difference this year is an attention thing I find I am getting caught watching hours of video and not realizing what I am watching nor for how long and somedays it keeps me from socializing with the excuse, oh I was busy watching a show or researching which more often then not these days is bullshit since I just scan videos until one catches my attention and then it leads to a bunch more after that and in these moods its.jevwr about learning since this isn’t possible as I can’t retain information just blindly watch and generally not knowing soon after what it was I had even seen, this I have no control over and it’s not a planned endeavor either. I wake up and feel fine and really don’t notice it until like hour 4 almost coming out of some trance for truly a lack of a better word and it usually takes awhile for me to really come out and keep in mind I have to be standing while I do this what the significance is I don’t know, it’s almost as though I am on auto pilot and my brain needs to be stimulated and it does so on it’s own.
There are a lot of unknowns with C.T.E. and we see new and different things each day for the most part and have to learn to roll with them as well as we can and fix and adjust also where we are able in order to make both of our days much better. The reason the push is on now to add more to my routine is the hope it will keep me more active next winter see working a season of 4 ahead, as we did this year watching the memories of the last 2 years and adjusting.
Last year seen the end of smoking and excessive coffee, also seen the constant addition of Chaga and Fresher Raw Honey, we also understand now more then ever the importance of feeding my brain extra protein since I get energy and can stay focused better as the day goes on, we seen the end of 1 to 4 hour naps since I had had enough and wanted to function more as an adult again as opposed to a child needing a nap, most importantly last year seen us shed the drama and bullshit of the past, the lies and bullshit from old friends and family got shed taking all the stress and drama with it. This past year has seen us making more gains the losses however I would be a liar if I didn’t say there are certain things that are bothering me my memory as I touch on a lot as well as this new twitch in my hand most of me thinks it’s due to inactivity and being broken more times then I can remember so this is the next phase I am hoping to start Monday and do daily and that is exercise finally I think I have had enough aches and pains which I didn’t hurt this much when I trained and fought but that being said it’s time, as I need to increase saratonin as well as endorphins in my brain will this keep my memory probably not will it calm the shakes most likely, see we don’t win all the way around but the small wins are the best anyway and what better way to work into the summer and hiking then getting into better shape then a jelly fish which is what I feel like currently. So join us as we again begin to move forward building on the education and knowledge we have in regards to suspected C.T.E. and if anyone says they have been diagnosed they lie we are all suspected until we are dead at this point kind of a harsh way to end but its life, thank you all for following along and we hope everyone is stocked up on supplies for this new round of lock downs due to another man made disease. Have a great day and if your bored tune in @2pm Eastern only on Facebook.

Why We Do What We Do.

 

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They Say 1 Act Of Kindness Goes Along Way.

They Say 1Act Of Kindness Goes Along Way.

Well I may or may not believe in this Covid shit however the fact remains it is affecting billions and of those there are some that just barely make it everyday we have been there people and at times are, we are just your average folks who after helping one other time decided to never do it again but there are exceptions to every rule and this situation is one of them. What exactly I mean is we don’t eat a lot of prepackaged foods but decided under the circumstances maybe we should pick up some extra canned goods and dried products that normally we wouldn’t however yesterday we learned where we get our fresh foods from has no intentions of closing but we don’t know how long this will go and with the food banks being decimated the way they are going to be once things begin to return to normal we have decided to donate all of the things we picked up extra which truly isn’t a lot but it’s more then most with a lot more will do.
I do find as I write this ironically comical as we never thought we would help again but after hearing the stories of people hoarding and really letting greed take over, and let’s face it most of these greedy cunts are the richer ones who can do it without a fuck to give about the single parent just making it or the people working 2 and 3 jobs barely getting by, the haves can always get more and part of me truly is wishing the world as we know it would end and we could rise and show these fat cat fucks just who owns what one can dream can’t I? This all being said if everyone like us could give just a little after things half ass return to normal things will get better faster without the fucking government and their unreliable help which let’s face it they’re writing more fucking checks on the backs of the tax payer that with the dwindling workforce will be another of those pay backs like Hydro here in Ontario where I don’t think 6 generations from now we will have paid off the over spending of a horrible government again not the point truly just a mitigating factor as to why now more then ever us average joes need to stick together and put our egos aside and I know for me it’s the children having something in the morning even though mom or dad was locked out of work with no pay and has enough to worry about with late rent already.
This for me is an eye opener as I swore to never again do right as the fuck job simply wasn’t worth it, however since the dust has settled I have noticed helio g folks we have never met is appreciated more then from those we use to know and again for me it’s the kids that will go hungry, so if you have a little extra after this open back up or if you know someone in need now don’t wait help as you can and depending when it ends it maybe a joint venture where we take it together to a foodbank since we don’t or aren’t aware of anyone personally of local to us since we have no friends otherwise that’s where it would go. So if you like us have a little extra food after don’t hesitate to help and also don’t be like the fat cat fucks who will hoard their shit til its rotten and hoard more just because they can let’s not be a cunt like these fucks shall we and show a little more compassion, fuck never thought I would say that again but there you go. Moral of the story don’t be rich greedy cunt share a little brighten someone’s days and thank you all for following along and see you @2pm Eastern.

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Responsible and Medicinal Two Over Used Words

Responsible and Medicinal Two Over Used Words.

Responsible and Medicinal are two of the most over used words when it comes to marijuana these days if you tuned into my live or seen our newest YouTube rant about the newest and worst dispensary we have come across as they endorse and openly sponsor a show that has zero to do with medicinal and crosses a huge line on the responsible since it is well known that minor children are allowed now of course at their parents discretion to watch and participate, in this day and age of fighting for legalization and some getting it and some not so much. Some don’t get why this makes me so mad and why I question so many about morals and judgement seems odd since I am no moral judge of character but what I am is someone who knows and understands the true medicinal value in responsible use and this does not allow a live that truly is vulgar more then anything but is pot based, how does this show anyone responsible use exists? The truth is it doesn’t it shows exactly why I say NO to legalization of Psychedelics, as I read a post in a group with parents openly bragging about giving their children edibles to calm them down and justifying why it’s better then big pharma, fact is it’s not and this again is considered cool, hip, righteous, depending your decade. My opinion is any parent that does or condones this is on them but to share on a public live on Facebook bragging about what their children see are wrong simple both these parties are neither Responsible nor Educational on Responsible Medicinal use, but for an actual Canadian Craft Grower to support this takes it to a whole new level of fucking irresponsibility which again for you big mouth fucks would be none of my business had it not be plastered all over the fucking place but since it was it’s a community problem. My personal views are simple as a parent do as you please just don’t advertise for people like me to pick you a part and tell you just how fucking silly you all are but in my aggressive your a fucking loser of losers tone! Legalization is something we have waited for along time for and never did I think I would see what I do so badly hut here we are and all brought out by legalization with all the fucktards popping to the surface to remind everyone they were right about just how irresponsible, stupid, lazy and any other stereotype we have fought to get rid of first decades, us consumers are far from stupid and those who participate in these shows and with companies like Island Pharm Craft Cabbage and shows like Frosts Cannabis Corner please don’t follow us as your not our people same as those who follow Smoke Nation and Joe Hernandez your not ours either he smokes a lot in a house with his kids seems fucked up all of you talk respect and yet watch these ass fucks and either see their kids or allow your own to watch and participate thank you for being the cunts holding everything back and lumping us in with you to the point who would want to listen as aren’t all potheads the same as the above mentioned fucking weirdos well fuck no we aren’t, I believe in all of the above responsible medicinal use and sharing what we know but if you have minor children our shows not for them if you deem it to be and I find out blocked immediately, so moral of the story do your shit quietly and if you truly stand for what we do you get what I am saying, and if your a supporter of the fools above your little vagina is all stretched and your mad cuz I am dissing your folks well fuck you maggot your the problem with everything stereotypically wrong with weed association now kiss my ass and grow the fuck up, let everyone know what will and won’t be tolerated I guess I just did. Have a great day all and live @2pm Eastern.

Forever Changing Things.

 

 

To Understand The Live Yesterday.

To Understand The Live Yesterday.

 

Well I was more animated then I have been in a long time yesterday and the reason is confusion and being told what to do by those that are declaring themselves smarter then the rest of us, see this could be directly related to the vast majority of doctors being greedy useless cunts and over prescribing but also the whole situation makes little to no sense and to my brain it must as if it doesn’t I sit and spin. This morning is a fine example of that as I got up to checked emails and here I have not 1 bit 3 fucking community standards violation on fucking facebook for sharing memories and what exactly were they must have been pot? An offensive video? Slanderous comment? Nope none of the above the memories were chaga, lionsmane, and Concussion related all legal and all have been shared in the past why are these against standards? I don’t go as crazy anymore because Facebook is a fucking joke and continues to get worse and is no longer social anything, its fucking totalitarian on there anymore that being said in the past I would spin for days as they encourage sharing and networking and then fuck you in the ass.
The majority can likely feel my heat talking about it since again it’s a control thing more so I think and not being told what the fuck to do I mean we aren’t children anymore and although I feel most adults are literally to fucking stupid to think for themselves and blindly follow the Covid 19 bullshit trail as all governments now peel more freedoms and rights away with their “Emergency Powers” that tend to remain in effect for ever it scares me to think in the blink of an eye we are now told no groups bigger then 50, eating and drinking establishments closed, people locked I houses, seems to me the minority being the rich can net us poor fools in especially when the lemmings squeak and run. These are situations we laughed about as kids these would never happen and I guess even as I write this my confusion runs deep on many levels of this scammy fucking bullshit but won’t get all crazy just stay in wonderment.
The thing we see the most is the confusion to anger as most with dementia and or alzheimers get and that is what you seen live and in person yesterday and this to makes me tired and of course more irritable like when I woke up and snapped at the 3 infractions over bullshit why why why is the only question I have since it makes ZERO sense hit for those looking for insight into anything we deal with from a med free person then this is it and your chance to dissect me live well unless I do this which I mean helps as we know it’s not the meds since they don’t exist so everything we go through is real hitting and missing which sucks ass hard but it’s the best insight anyone gives since most have second and third hand accounts, not alot can directly ask someone in the stage I am specifics, I’m only open to average people going through this doctors, researchers, assistants, university people fuck off we got jacked by a couple cunts already so only average folks like us will get answered!!! I’m still pretty wild about that fuck job and haven’t truly spoken of it because I am still so mad that being said we tried something that as usual turned into bullshit because people can’t be honest and have to be little cunty bitch face fucks ya still angry..
I truly do hate having such anger towards people but this is what its come to no trust for most and although we share alot there is always much left unsaid as we walk through trying to find the absolute heat course of treatment for an angry brain like mine and most days we win but there are those days where things just don’t and the more confused I get the more shows like yesterday you see, unlike most I hate drama and generally when I bitch it’s for good reason although I do at times feel like a whiney fuck and should just accept shitty customer service, other people and the host of other shit most accept blindly. I hope this brings a better understanding of how my brain latches onto something and won’t let go makes going out and not confronting a fuckhead very difficult but we will get there sooner then later to as I am getting bored being in the house again and the last time this happened it wasn’t long and we were outside so hopefully soon I can do lives in different places show some of the beautiful scenery we do have around us as opposed to being in the house all the time, the spring and summer are full of opportunities and I am hoping to take advantage of the more settled weather and get more active. Thank you for following along and have a great day and don’t forget live @2pm Eastern only on shitty Facebook see you then.

When I Don’t Know My Ownself.

 

 

When Your Brain Doesn’t Communicate Properly Anymore.

When Your Brain Doesn’t Communicate Properly Anymore.

We have seen and learned alot but the main thing being my brain doesn’t communicate properly anymore and for those dealing with it they understand and for those that don’t hopefully I can give you some insight as we go, and sadly rather then becoming more stupid and noticing less, I get to keep intelligence the longest and am noticing every OCD detail of every event that isn’t perfect thus driving myself insane with perfection that never existed or have I ever attempted reach, however with certain portions of my brain no longer talking getting to resolutions and understanding takes way longer as we need to walk around the garden of fuck to get to the straight and narrow, changed to a smaller bong to save me 2 hours of cleaning as spotless is an understatement as well.
Now that I have blurbed all that out let’s walk back a few years shall we to when the subtle loss of communication began it was around the time everyone was making fun of me for improvising words making them up in alot of cases, and since most laughed I left it at that as nobody seen what was really going on including me, I was very busy running somethings then business and coaching so being forgetful made sense the troubles were when I slowed down and didn’t have so much on my brain and things were no better but in fact worse and the slower it made me the slower I got and the faster it took control and I have tried fighting this cunt but there is no fighting at this point just living the best life I can and more trying to understand how this disconnect of brain chatter happens and when there a lot just how silent your head does get like mine now more then ever. What causes this you ask, well from what we have seen out of Boston University yes a Canadian using American research since ours are ABSOLUTELY FUCKING USELESS to the point The Concussion Legacy Foundation doesn’t do a fucking thing here, that rant done it’s the only research available and truly Anne McKee is the best in the field currently working her ass off trying to figure out the puzzle of Chronic Traumatic Encephalopathy and with so many similarities to Dementia and Alzheimers you would think things would move fast and we could utilize some of the diagnostics but this simply isn’t the case and since there is no diagnosis until post mortem getting familiar with just how the lights dim may help alot of others and is the hope that we can help make the rest of life good but to know how you begin to forget and lose shit long before it becomes a thing had I been more aware I may have saved 3 years however things were meant to be the way they happened with anger and losing more keys then I care to remember but the main thing was not being me which the vast majority agreed, sadly however they all fucking sat back and watched and some were even shocked when our relationship ended but to deal with this on your own takes it out of you, from quitting a job I loved to moving to find acceptance but when I couldn’t understand nor know me anymore how could I ask others to?
The damage to my brain encompasses the frontal, frontal temporal lobes mainly as I took alot of head shots probably the most severe was the 20 or 30 stairs I flew down only hitting the bottom one with my face before bouncing through the wall and not wanting to stay down and actually fighting the cops later at the hospital all beat up and still wanting more, and during the vast majority of time things were set in motion and my Synapses had been building plaque for along time due to slaps, punches, falls, kicks, all to various portions of my head and this is the what they say is now the worst as opposed to previously thought concussions being the culprit since the swinging and stretching and partial breaking results in Tau and Amyloid Plaques building and eventually silencing the thought and action process and putting some of us into a dementia state with a bunch of other fun bullshit way to young which generally indicates we won’t make 60 and most don’t make 50 with all of their dogs barking, and being 46 and 47 in a few months this bullshit has my attention since life expectancy was 51. So you decide am I crazy and full of shit like some say or are we making some headway in this disease and the others that come with it stay tuned to find out I guess. Thank you for following along and remember live @2pm Eastern have a great day.

Where Did It Go?

 

Our Low Dose Butter Theory.

Our Low Dose Butter Theory.

We most certainly have our theory on low dosing most things butter included, this may seem odd to most in the face of this bullshit debate on how many milligrams per edible most say the more the merrier we say educate yourself and use less it equals more and here’s the how’s and why’s of our theory. The very first thing to understand is we use 14 grams of either flower or kief and the latter being preferred however there is no sense making a smaller batch since its 14 to a pound of butter which in turn lasts 2 plus months and keeps in both the freezer and fridge without a problem.
We do use 2 different processes when it comes to making butter with flower we decarboxulate it in the oven and with kief there in my opinion is simply no need since we will slow roll it in a pot for 2 hours some say longer but it’s all on your preference we find 2 hours no matter what is sufficient enough time to extract the oils from either source. We have used cheese cloth and old panty hose to strain out the plant material, in the case of kief there is no plant material to speak of and leaves very little in the filter we will say, and then its into the fridge for the separation and set which we usually just leave for the night and pop it in the morning and then move forward with whichever edible type we want which as of late seems to be banana bread using only a third of a cup of butter again works for us may not you.
The biggest question is why do we do this and the answer as always is two fold as so many talk medicinal but truly are stupid and ignorant on the subject, since most ailments cause inflammation in the body the essential oils in the plant transfer to the butter and when taken in smaller doses allow the oils to help in bringing down inflammation, as well as the studies we have read on how it helps with IBS and we have come to understand the oils in fact go so far down the intestine and do help ward of the inflammation causing the pain, again need to get fucked up here now is there? The other benefit is gut health most of the medical journals and holistic folks say there is a strong coalition between the brain and gut and to me at least my guy feels better with low dose butter added to what we already use in Raw Honey, Chaga, and the foods we eat along with psychedelics surprisingly enough. We currently use the strains we research and purchase not only to consume but grow as well now and smoke them for pain and other things butter and kief offer a different treatment and high dosing isn’t something I think we really need to do just consistently have butter in the house and of course growing will help with this, the message as always is look at things yourself don’t take others word or what you read at face value I would also suggest we don’t know how many milligrams per piece and neither does anyone else they talk alot of shit but at the end of the day homemade is best and if this isn’t possible finding a source is in my opinion impossible therefore a good grinder and saving your kief goes along way as you can see we saved 14 grams in less then 2 months and this batch should last as long therefore allowing the cycle to continue until our crop is ready to be changed into butter.
The vast majority of people don’t truly have the understanding we do and truly do talk a lot of shit they don’t understand just rip and read and these celebrity chefs talking shit can sit the fuck down to greedy cunts is all they are, it’s so much easier for me to share because I want nothing for it maybe just to help and maybe a friend at the end of the day but our help for most comes free other well not so easy we will say. On this note thank you all for following along and have a great day and don’t forget live @2pm Eastern on Facebook topics not set yet see you then.

Dosing And Knowing Your Strains.

The Anxiety Is At Times Overwhelming.

The Anxiety Is At Times Overwhelming.

This weekend seen yet another area of old me death and something’s I am not sure I want to continue to deal with so I have to figure out how to change them before it’s to late and I am isolated forever what is it I am talking about well where do I begin since talking about any of it sucks shit but anyway here goes.
The old me dying portion is a double edge sword as I sort of set out to see how many beers I could truly drink before calling it quits and 4 that’s all now some are saying wow that’s a few but considering that was generally the amount I’d consume while thinking about having a shower, which sort of hurt my feelings as I thought I could handle much more and was scared more would’ve been needed as a binge was due as I celebrated being in a better place now why this was so significant sort of plays into this as old me would drink to excess and then be a chatter box and call whoever I thought would answer and Saturday I was supposed to finally beat this anxiety of talking to people in a private setting like video chat and shit again seems a silly as being afraid of a 90 something year old lady because she spoke to me. I was so excited Thursday, Friday, and even Saturday morning and as the time to talk with 2 cool fellas from the UK I froze and dreamt up 50 million reasons why I was inconveniencing them either they were eating, to late, they work a lot, whatever bullshit fear I could conjure I used to make sure i fell asleep before calling and all day yesterday i processed just what in the fuck is wrong with me and why I would give up the opportunity to actually talk to someone as opposed to messaging or texting, am I scared we won’t like each other after, maybe argue over some dumb shit just because I get nervous and panic and yes this has happened a few times.
The troubles and fear I have as I write this seem to grow by the thought of just what could and in my mind would go wrong, is the answer avoiding and leaving it unsaid? Well sort of but not really, I mean to message with a sorry abc came up bullshit only works so long when the truth is I was scared to death and what man wants to admit such things well very few I have ever encountered that being said I am one as I would I rather come clean with this truth then think I am a full of shit clown talking shit as that’s not the case, apparently chatting live with folks is very difficult and likely because it has been so long since I have really talked to anyone except Michelle on the phone anyway. This is a struggle I don’t want to quit on how and when I can and will do this as if now is unknown but I have the monkey off my back so to speak and will now begin to figure it out and move forward most likely in baby steps as again getting spooked is not in the cards in the same way making it trip next year a thing, baby stepping by little outings until we head out for our first over night which could last a couple of weeks scary even as I write but a year shows alot and we will know then if we are ready as I will when I finally shock everyone and just make that call which I think is more what needs doing planning gives me to much time to chicken out as real as it gets no time for bullshit and really honesty is the key after all and what I would expect, so going forward no more plans and no more excuses it is what it is whether fear of rejection or anything else it needs to be taken head on and talked about as this is the safe forum since writing seems to generally make me feel much better and as I write this how in the fuck can we hit the road and meet and greet in real life if I can’t even face time seems I have some work to do and as always more then I wanted to have or needed but this is our life of discovery and I am happy to have this forum as a way to work through them and get them out there, thank you all for following along and we have moved the live to 2pm Eastern on Facebook have a great day and hope to see you there.

The Ways In Which I Hate My Brain Are Lengthy.

What Is It You Really Wanted To Know?

What Is It You Really Wanted To Know?

Well today I’m asking the simple question to everyone what is it you would like to know? Either about C.T.E., weed, psychedelics, how we use what we do to treat, this is the place that ask and be respected to get an answer, as we grow I can’t help think people have questions and I’m missing them in directing the vast majority of material being posted which thankfully is changing as our mods again begin to post other views which gives all those here many views of one topic which couldn’t make me happier honestly as I always say I don’t know it all and am thankful for such knowledgeable folks not only as mods but also now participating in the lives asking and answering questions, educating in some cases one another giving the personal side of things as opposed to the rip and read version most assholes doing lives do. What separates us from everyone else is the number one question well that’s simple we live what we present all the tests and trials have been read.and researched by us and then we build our plan to initiate whatever it maybe from different strains to psychedelics everything is looked into almost to the point its sickening prior to us committing and then trialing on me such is the case with microdosing alot of time went into the study we did and we didn’t just take 1 view but 30 plus I swear, and of all the ones I did read I am unlike any as most can do 1 or 2 cycles and be good in most cases years and some forever. This isn’t the case for me I need some not alot ready and available for those times that are tremendously difficult, as we seen last week when a little went along way.
The same is said for weed every strain has been read and read about because we look for certain terpenes, and genetic lines as we have seen in the past wavering or rush buying can lead to troubles such as paranoia, depression, hyperactivity, and the list of nonsense goes on when we make the wrong strain choices therefore caution is needed, as you can see this way is difficult when there is nobody to answer the questions you have or when the information is wrong as in my case I wasted a couple of years listening to a dummy and once I stopped listening and began doing it for myself I wasn’t long getting more on track although we do learn everyday as the plant has so many variables and ways to truly help in the vast majority of issues we have, and how and why we use it in the ways that we do may or may not work for you, I would never say with 100% certainty this is for anyone, what I do say is its something to look at a different approach to the big pharma sentence. The list of things we treat is long but anger, anxiety, depression, appetite loss, sleep issues, headaches, and the list continues and I know some folks are using some other things we don’t because they work if this is you cool congrats we have what is working for us right now and changing as needed, we always begin our day with raw honey to sweeten our coffee, also fresh liquid honey and Chaga for our protein shakes again the more protein the better they say. We have a lifestyle not a fucking bullshit diet and we est everything had restaurant pizza last night, seems we have cheated alot this week but that to runs hand in hand with the weather and time change all things we have come to understand cause us troubles but by doing what we do in the morning we limit the amount of inflammation since everything we add is high in anti oxidants, and truly fresh and healthy as we include frozen mixed fruit as the so called fresh is rotten in 10 minutes of being home total waste of money, most disagree and good for you you much be a rich cunt and not my cup of tea. I’m brash and abrasive I have zero time to mince words and don’t put up with a lot of shit, the message we offer isn’t one we will argue over as its proving itself to be working on 99% of my troubles including these new hands tremors I have but I’m trying to figure out if that’s simple lazy inactivity on my part and will begin to fade once we finally start working out, yes long fucking overdue and should challenge more of my aggresive tendencies but without energy there is simply nothing I could and this should be the step towards us hiking this summer, not something we can do in the winter as our males feet hate the cold and well neither of us are fans so it sort of works maybe a treadmill in the winter to keep things going. I talk all the time about our lifestyle including everything and as you see we have been working slowly toward the grow took a year but here we are, growing and 2 little plants have stuck there head up changing my mood some as again I was using any old excuse to feel bad about myself and since it took longer then a minute for those to pop up meant I was a loser couldn’t even grow auto flowers, I mean those who know get what I am saying I have used grey days as an excuse to go into one of those worlds better off situations, but seeing that Bruce Banner hulking its shit through the soil in the morning and then Mazar pounding to the top last night makes me smile some writing this as no need to feel bad just need patience which had things not improved I’d have micro dosed thankfully I don’t have to again trying to show it doesn’t need to be used like pills and other shit in case of emergency is our moto.
The purpose of this was to say hello to those new and to let you know there is no stupid question if you follow our lives and don’t want to ask a question there you can email us ourctelife@gmail.com and if your question is for Michelle then she will get it and answer without a problem, and the more active everyone is the educational it then becomes it forces me to go back and read and research and some others may have first hand experience I don’t on certain topics, so please feel free to get involved and we do have the closed group as well for those wanting privacy while educating themselves, thank you all for following and have a great day see you @1pm Eastern I will be having an announcement on there, have a great day all.

Focusing On The Positive.

The PTSD Factor.

The PTSD Factor.

This is a subject I seldom go into any great detail in as I truly have my hands full with everything associated with C.T.E. since there is just so much, now there are also a few crossovers we constantly battle as you will see in some of the pictures in this post to give folks a better idea of just how fucked up this is and how dangerous. The focus for a lot as I am seeing is the link between veterans and these 2 brain issues since again C.T.E. can come for mortar blasts, direct and indirect, and as I have been saying sub concussive hits are now being blamed more often than concussions themselves and this is how more research and attention was brought to both issues
The trouble in it all is folks stop at one or other and justifiably who the fuck wants to focus on both well sadly we must as it’s a matter of life and death since snapping is a thing for me we have to at least be aware of triggers and we have a few mainly dealing with sensory overload, light and sound being the worst I become aggressive quickly, it also causes a lot of confusion and clouds the right and wrong emotions and sends in a more neanderthalic approach which sadly is a dominate and conquer mentality at an any means neccessary expense it could be a disaster. The diagnosis of PTSD is a lot more then you will get from C.T.E. since they still can’t find it and I think this is what drives me on to figure it out since it’s a no brainer that someone with my history would have PTSD and there are a ton of things they tought as being the second coming however we know weed keeps the vast majority of these symptoms at bay along with the food we eat keeping inflammation down and continuing to control my environment will be the key as we begin hopefully to harvest in the coming weeks and show everyone just what it is we mean or our theories are, I truly believe we can beat any virus going with a few simple things and the biggest is eating all prepackaged foods and fast foods, funny how folks talk of the weight loss of subway but they also forget package meat is one of the worst for cancers and obviously weakens your immunity see no fucking brainer. The moral of this story is we deal with multiple things in our daily routines and generally the treatment is natural and not bottled up vitamins but true vitamin C in oranges and juice, real fish not just Captain Hindgrinder and his bullshit, we don’t follow bullshit fads like the Keto, weight watchers, and many other yoyo inducing fad diets that do little more than deplete nutrients from your body and yes I think Joe Rogan and his Carnivore Diet is the newest and biggest fucking joke going even though if lost recall I require high protein as with our weed I firmly believe you need the entire plant for medicinal value not just the buds and it needs to be eaten as opposed to smoked as most would disagree but that’s ok we have a pretty strategic plan that as I have been pointing out isn’t perfect but it’s a fuck of a lot better then we had. Thank you all for following along and have a great day I will be live as always @1 pm Eastern on Facebook see you then.

Our Life together with CTE

 

That Time Change Though.

That Time Change Though.

That time change is the worst thing we deal with twice a year and we know there are more out there for sure, this is where life slid off the rails for us last year with the tired and grumpy. Let’s go back in time to last year to really set the stage and I use last year as it’s the most recent and severe and drastic, see it was about now that I was again alone or getting close and I didn’t have as good a on routine as I do this year, I mean sleep isn’t as bad as last year for starters compare to last year I was going to be around the same time of 8 to 9 pm but then I was up for the day anytime after 11pm yes the same night and being unable to go back to bed except an hour or 2 nap in the afternoon I truly at times felt like I was going insane on that note alone. Keep in mind most people with straight dementia and alzheimers report sleep patterns or lack there of as being the biggest issue but rather then us going to the doctor for an up in pills we just studied more and more on cause and effect as we also listened to the stories of “it didn’t matter what they gave them, they only got worse” now am I the only that puts 1 plus 1 and its the meds more then the disease or are the vast majority as brainwashed as what I am seeing with this Corona bullshit, I lived mask free during SARS this isn’t much different but those that really look into things already know this those that don’t are fighting over toilet paper. This all being said as someone who’s immunity is supposed to also be compromised due to things that no one can explain why am I heading out to get some meds or the next appointment so everyone else can make extra money on me? No thank you I’m cool without all that extra stress because again folks panic, stress, anger, sadness, all weaken the immune system nothing better then some panic to help a cold along in this world with the hand sanitizer that honestly isn’t worth a fuck either use soap stops more, all this making fun should stop as people truly believe this shit.
This all being said we again feel keeping me home away from the fun of a doctor’s office or hospital is the better choice and I am way off topic and will now come back as we see a huge difference this year and not from doing all that other unnecessary bullshit no meds, doctor, hospital, just old fashioned lifestyle for the most part and using things that most people don’t understand weed being the biggest in ways again most don’t understand because we have done our homework so to speak took almost 2 years researching before growing to make sure this is the right thing to do and if anyone reading this thinks each day like yesterday aren’t tough your fucked up, yesterday was like dragging myself through broken glass to no fall asleep or get grumpy, depressed, or any other wild emotion that seems to spring out of nowhere. I am hoping this fatigue goes sooner then later although I am beginning to feel as though its here for good in one way or the other and I just have to get a routine that bulls through it because back tracking and napping aren’t in the cards, and although I slept good and really just woke up I could go back to bed now or so it feels. This I am certain affects a lot of others in varying ways and most head to the doctor, I’m telling you there could potential maybe another way but first some must grow some balls and realize it’s not as easy as waking up tomorrow throwing your meds out and running hard this I assure you, meds need to be weaned over time I never had this issue, but even bigger then that you have to understand days like yesterday happen, anger, aggression, and yes from time to time even these naps I detest sneak up and lay me out I accept it more now and pick my battles which at current moment is attempting to grow some decent legal weed as we see well I will save that as I have a busy day to make up for yesterday anyway. Thank you all for following along and don’t forget live on Facebook @1 pm Eastern and don’t hesitate to email us privately with any questions @ ourctelife@gmail.com have a great day see you all soon.

Prescription Meds What Can I Really Say?

 

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