Is It Over Already?
I can’t help but sit and ask is it over already? I have been trying and pushing and fighting to continue lives and blogging, however I am so fuckin tired I just can’t do it. I have often pushed to hard I guess when I have energy and am accomplishing things as it does feel good to get shit done like this since I hate missing days.
It’s hard to remember the seemingly endless days I work without sleep most of it and with little food since it made me to tired to continue, and now writing a blog, doing a live and some laundry is about as big a day as I can manage, but for me this isn’t enough. I have been a go getter to long to sit back and do nothing, although going silent at the end of last week wasn’t the coolest shot ever but it needed done as I simply couldn’t keep my eyes open and sadly not from over consuming as I didn’t even get there just woke up tired and didn’t recover from it since and truly don’t know where this round of being dictated will be over or will it end this time? When I see this happening because it does a lot I change how I consume weed in that it’s less always, generally in the morning I wait from between 1 to 2 hours after I get up to have my first rip, and then generally its 4 small bowls stretched over about 2 hours giving every single hit time to set in and see if this is enough or do I need a little more? Generally speaking the 4 is enough and that generally takes me to about 10 am again depending on what time I wake up which as of late has been from 1230am to 430am again among routine not my friend, and the fact it just keeps fucking with me out of the blue is becoming more troublesome each time it happens.
This again is the time I would much rather have my face buried in video games avoiding the world, some of it this time I am certain has to do with the overload of bullshit constantly being posted about this Covid and 5g service, also the amount of hate we have seen in so many stories from the poor folks stuck at sea and the Americans online saying “sink them” “kill them” like have we come to this? And after now people should just what, trust the mentality that helping they neighbor is a good thing? Sadly I am now of the mindset if we ain’t cool and shit goes bad best keep driving there’s no help here for you and anyone coming for trouble will absolutely find it and more then they have bargained for this I am certain. This situation has taken someone who already was afraid of the boogeyman and made it 10 times worse, since I like history so much it’s a situation that takes me back to pre WW2 the snitching, the bullying, the name calling, the we are better then you mentality, I promise those of you being so negative aren’t ready for the end, scared that you will lose your precious status in life and people like me will make you our bitches and your money and title mean fuck all, sad that I would rather now become as vile as those I witnessed talking nasty shit, sad that I would ignore a knock on the door and let someone starve instead of helping. In reality I always knew how evil people could be and would be from hoarding toilet paper to beer selfishly not worrying about the best person, I thought people fighting over toys and electronics was the worst however I now know every man for himself. The good thing is that history has taught me much and this lockdown is just the first of more to come for “our own good”, again if stupid and selfish mother fuckers would just well I wouldn’t stay at home either if i wasn’t how I am, but I wouldn’t have hoarded so much shit either no matter what I wouldn’t have lost my HUMANITY.
The fact is we deal with so much paranoia already this makes me want to put all 3 of us under 1 proof after this and make sure we have all the supplies and snare lines we would need for later on in order to sustain ourselves in case, I have zero trust in the government to look after us once the strip us of everything like they just did and will do again, and I guess that’s on bonus of this disease I won’t feel “OK” until we have a few things we have been talking about for the next time this happens. I truly believe I am depressed over this shit everytime you look anywhere lockdown, death, paranoia, lies in some cases all being told to what? Really the numbers don’t support what is happening anywhere and sadly the truth will come out one day after the damage is done, and for me it’s done trust fucking nobody and stockpile your own shit and fuck thy neighbor don’t come knocking in the event of another pandemic as we just simply don’t give a fuck. Never in my life did I think I would be at this point however I am and it’s a result.of knowing just how evil and cancerous us as humans truly are and how it turns into the survival of the fittest and a huge mob mentality which again divides us all which us the easiest way to take total control. I will leave you with this thought for those that either believe or not in the New World Order I seen a speech our premier gave yesterday quoting the Americans in “Together We Stand Divided We Fall” seemed almost ominous as he said it, let that sink the fuck in and I am not a conspiracy guy but something hasn’t smelled right since the jump you decide for you, thank you following along and have a great day, no lives today and we will see when tomorrow gets here but I still plan 9 and 4 hopefully making 1 for sure. Have a great day all.